October 23, 2021

I’ve been really tired the last few days. When I had trouble sleeping yet again last night, I shut myself in the guest room, much to the pups’ dismay. They love sleeping on the guest bed, but I wanted to try to sleep in, and I knew I couldn’t if they were with me. When they realized I was there at 2 am, I heard them pawing at the door. It took some resolve not to give in, but I didn’t. And I stayed in bed until 9 am, which is at least 2.5 hours past normal for me, even on the weekend. Then after we ran some errands this morning, I was once again exhausted and took a nap as soon as we got home. I’m hoping it’s radiation fatigue and nothing else going on.

I’m thankful for being able to get some rest when I need it. Even if it’s just relaxing on the sofa with this guy.

March 7, 2021

One of the hardest things for me in all of this has been not being able to do as much as I normally would. I’m used to jumping into physical projects and not thinking twice about it. Today I wanted to finish some cleaning that I started yesterday. After vacuuming the floors, I took all the sofa cushions off our sectional so I could vacuum everything and flip them over. I had to stop periodically because I got winded. And then the rest of the day, my legs ached.

I’m blaming chemo, even though I know I’m out of shape. It’s frustrating to feel this way, but I remind myself often that it’s temporary and manageable. I need to do what I can now and let it go. I also think that maybe it’s a good time to incorporate yoga into my routine to help build some strength.

Although I was moving slower than normal, I did get more done today and that helped my peace of mind. I’m thankful for that. I’m also thankful for a couple of new spring touches that make me smile.

That face!

February 4, 2021

The fatigue caught up with me today. I made it through work and ended up taking a late afternoon nap. I really dislike days when I’m feeling unproductive, but I realize it’s going to happen. It seems like the 2nd and 3rd days after chemo are my hardest ones.

I’ve never been one to nap, but I’m going to try to embrace it when I need them. It helps that our pups like to cuddle in with me. I’m thankful for that. I’m also thankful that the fatigue isn’t constant yet. After a couple of days, I know it will get better.