October 28, 2021

I was still feeling sad about my dr visit yesterday. But I got these flowers from my in-laws, which made me smile. I got random silly pictures from a couple of friends that made me laugh. I also talked to my mom and daughter who both made me feel better just by talking about other stuff. I’m so thankful for family and friends, who once again helped boost my mood today, whether it was intentional or not.

October 24, 2021

I haven’t felt great most of the weekend. It’s been rainy and cold, too, which doesn’t help much. So this afternoon I got into my Hocus Pocus pajamas, made tea in my HP mug, and watched the movie while curled up under a blanket.

While I was watching the movie, Patrick made me chicken soup from scratch. Mmmm. After relaxing most of the day, I’m thankful to be feeling better.

October 21, 2021

I’m grateful today that my friend’s surgery went well and she has a clear path for her cancer treatment that isn’t too difficult. I’m so happy hers was found early! I’m thankful for a conversation this afternoon that reminded me not to take work difficulties personally. It’s so hard! And I’m thankful for an encouraging note from my mom that came in the mail.

October 20, 2021

I slept last night! I woke up a lot but I got back to sleep each time, which was a blessing. Also, a couple of times today I got up and wasn’t super sore. Yay! I know that sounds silly, but it’s nice to be able to just stand up and walk without aching hips or knees.

It was a crazy busy day, but I made it through. I’m thankful for work friends who check in. And for warm sunshine. And backyard puppy wiggles and funny hats.

October 19, 2021

I haven’t been sleeping well. I’m uncomfortable at night; it’s hard to find a position that brings sleep quickly. I want to lay on my side SO bad, but it’s still hard for any length of time. And last night, the dogs jumped into our bed at 2:30 am. After Barley stuck his paws in my face, I kicked them both out, waking Patrick up in the process. I don’t know what prompted their early sneak into bed, but it didn’t help. I was awake from 2 -4 am, after getting to sleep about 11. That seems to be my pattern lately.

So this morning was tough. I was crabby and emotional. Stupid breast spacers. Stupid radiation burned skin. Stupid 7 am start to my job. When Patrick returned from his office hours at the college, he could tell I was having a hard time holding it together. He asked what he could do to make it easier for me today.

I’m thankful that he notices and wants to help. I’m thankful for the yummy pot roast dinner he made today, and the equally yummy Manhattan he made for me tonight. And I’m thankful that he doesn’t judge me for periodically losing it.

October 17, 2021

I planned to be productive and work in my craft room today. It didn’t really happen. I brought some items to my storage unit where I noticed a tote was being crushed under the weight of tote on top of it. Grrr. So I had to move that tote of stuff (china saved from our wedding) into a new tote. That spiraled into a reorganization of the entire storage unit. By the time I got done with my reorg, I was tired. And hungry. So Patrick and I went to our favorite restaurant and had a late lunch outside in the sun.

I’m thankful to have cleaned up my storage unit because it’s been on my to-do list, although I didn’t expect to get to it until next summer. And while I didn’t do the crafting I planned for today. I did start a project. That’s something. And I still felt productive.

October 16, 2021

I’m grateful today for friends. It’s my friend Di’s birthday. We’ve been friends since 1995. Well, we met then at work and became friends. While we’ve never been the type of friends to do a lot together socially, we talk a lot. We check in. We encourage and console and motivate each other. She’s been there for me through a lot of changes in my life—and helped me move more than once (and probably never again). I’m happy she’s been my friend for so long and hope she will be forever.

I’m also thankful for an afternoon spent having a late lunch/early supper with some friends. We each made something towards the meal. And it was all yummy. It’s nice to start getting back to a bit of a social life.