February 12, 2022

Chance is a jerk. We were busy all day with errands and stuff so I felt bad when he seemed bored just before dinner. It was cold today, and we didn’t go out with them in the backyard. So when Chance followed me downstairs and stared at me as I got on the treadmill, I decided I’d take him for a quick walk around the block instead. Then do the same with Barley after dinner.

I bundled up and our walk started out fine. I did some fast walking since he was excited and kept pulling a bit. We got 3/4 of the way around the block when we came up on a woman walking a fluffy black dog. They would walk a few paces and then stop for a while. I had to slow down a little to try to keep some distance. Our dogs are sweet, but they aren’t used to other dogs and usually just bark a lot when they see them. It’s embarrassing because we all dropped out of obedience school.

We were doing good until we were almost home. Then the woman with the black dog stopped and didn’t move for a while. I crossed the street in hopes we could just hurry by and get to our driveway. But Chance started barking. And pulling. In my attempt to get in front of him and divert his attention, he tripped me, I stumbled forward, turned and fell. Hard. My hat fell over my face. In my struggle to get up, the woman with that dang black dog asked if I was ok. I mumbled I was fine as I high-stepped Chance, who was suddenly cooperative, into the house.

Let’s just say I was so frustrated that my Apple Watch chose that moment to record my “exercising.” And because I fell awkwardly on my hand, my pinky finger is swollen and a little bruised. I’m thankful it wasn’t anything more. And at least Chance had the decency to look guilty. I hope our neighbors enjoyed the show because it will be a while before I walk him around the block again.

February 11, 2022

I took off work early today, and we got out of town today for a little bit. We wanted to check out a place an hour away that sells recycled construction materials and antiques and is only open on Thursdays and Fridays. It was amazing and made me wish we lived in an old house. We’ve been talking about swapping out our interior doors for more interesting ones, so we keep looking at places like these. We didn’t find any doors, although they had some great ones. But I did find these vintage ceramic deer for my mom. Aren’t they cute?

It was fun to sneak away during the week. And when we got home we had this treat delivered to us. What a yummy surprise from my mother-in-law!

I’m thankful for a fun day and fun ending to the week.

February 10, 2022

I saw my plastic surgeon again yesterday. I didn’t write about because I was hoping I’d get more information today, so I could fully process what we discussed. As I’ve mentioned, our main goal is to get the radiated side, where the skin has shrunk/tightened so much, to stretch out enough to create an inframammary fold–the droopy bottom part of the breast. Right now, the spacer has just created an awkward mound. Thus far, the plan has been to overfill that side, then remove some of the saline, then overfill again until there is some elasticity in the skin to allow the implant to naturally fall. I fully expected to have another fill yesterday and bear the uncomfortable pressure again for a few days. However, my doctor has a new plan.

He wants to move forward with the fat grafting surgery, where he will liposuction my midsection, fill in the spots around my breasts that need extra padding (the chemo port left behind a big sunken spot), do a slight tuck on the radiated side to pull the stomach skin up and help with the fold, and put in the final implant on the right side. Then we will continue to fill the one that needs to stretch a bit more. His thought is that studies are showing fat cells actually help the radiated skin improve elasticity and discomfort, and having the final implant in on the other side gives a better comparison goal. The downside is that I’ll need yet another surgery to put in the final implant on the left. Sigh. At least it would be a quick one.

The kink in moving forward with this plan is that I have my vacation with my family coming up in a couple of weeks. So instead of leaving in all the saline of my overfilled side, he removed some. Ok, he removed a lot, so that I could actually get these suckers into a bathing suit. Instead of the uncomfortable pressure, I’ve been getting used to feeling the spacer move around a bit again. Now I won’t see him again until March, at which time he will refill, measure me, and then schedule surgery. It’s a double-edged sword that he has a very good reputation for both his talent and his compassion because now he’s really busy. What I was hoping to find out today was how far out surgery may be since he couldn’t answer that yesterday. I’m still waiting.

In the meantime, I’m thankful that my doctor has been thinking of ways to improve my outcome. And I’m thankful that I had some of the overfill removed, so it’s more comfortable and (somewhat) natural looking for my upcoming vacation.

February 9, 2022

I’ve been going into work this week, and it’s been weird. Everyone else is scheduled to come back next week from our covid work at-home schedule, but I thought I’d ease myself back in first. I really need to dust my office. And get reorganized there. And I really need to get used to the drive again. But this morning I was thankful to catch the beautiful sunrise on my way in.

February 6, 2022

Breakfast may be my favorite meal to eat out. I like having the variety of options and everything warm at the same time. So today we ate inside a restaurant for the first time since our anniversary last June. That’s nine months ago. Granted, we’ve eaten at restaurants but only ones where we could sit outside. It felt weird and nice at the same time. I’m thankful for some normalcy, finally.