December 14, 2021

I’ve been really busy with Patrick away. I’ve moved onto construction projects. Ha. Actually we finally have someone rebuilding our deck. The original deck had the support posts placed directly on the concrete slab below it, so when the concrete cracked (as it does with weather extremes) the posts started to shift. It got to a point where the stairs began to pull apart, and we knew it needed to be fixed.

Rebuilding a deck because you HAVE to is like replacing a roof or windows that have gone bad. It’s the home equivalent of buying underwear. Necessary but not especially exciting. So we decided if we’re gonna spend a bunch a money, we might as well get something out of it. Therefore we are making the deck a tad bigger. Ok, we are doubling the size of it. It’s slightly nuts since we never entertain, so needing a lot more space isn’t really essential, but at the same time, we also don’t go anywhere. Spending time in our backyard has been our primary source of vacation time for the last few years. Plus our backyard is big enough that it won’t be weird.

I’m thankful that the weather has held out long enough for them to get a lot done already. I’m thankful the workers are nice, even though their choice of music isn’t (bluegrass at 7 am, really?!). I’m also thankful we are able to make this investment in our home that we will be able to enjoy as soon as winter is over. I know we are lucky.

December 13, 2021

I saw my plastic surgeon again today and had another fill in my spacers. Each side got one of these syringes of saline. I’m starting to feel some uncomfortable twinges from my skin stretching, although my doctor assures me it shouldn’t cause stretch marks. Or pull apart my “seams” aka stitches. I’ve noticed the last couple of times that I could feel the pinch from the needle on my right side. Maybe my nerves are coming back. That would nice. On the left side, I still only feel pressure, which is no surprise since my whole armpit and a portion of my arm is still numb.

Because of the upcoming holidays, I won’t have another fill for a few weeks, which is fine. It will give my skin a chance to adjust and hopefully relax a bit. I’m still thankful to be moving along and tolerating this stretching well.

I’m also thankful that Patrick made it safely to Texas yesterday. He got up and left at 2 am since it was a 16-hr drive. It was supposed to be something of a surprise, so I didn’t mention it. He’s visiting his family and will drive back in a day or two. I’m sorry not to be able to visit his family, but I’ve enjoyed having all my tv shows on and complete access to the kitchen. The pups and I have been doing Christmas stuff 24/7 here. Now my countdown will be how many hours before he’s back.

December 12, 2021

I had a day to myself, so I was able to make some Christmas cookies. It took all day, partly because I had to buy some ingredients and then clean the oven beforehand. I wasn’t sure what had spilled in it from Patrick’s cooking, but I didn’t want anything savory changing the flavor of my sweets.

My favorite so far is this pepperkaker. It’s crisp and spicy, and the house smelled wonderful and Christmasy all night. I’m thankful I had the day for baking, which I didn’t do last year. If I get more done this week, I’m planning to give some to our neighbors. Well, as long as they turn out tasty…

December 11, 2021

It’s been incredibly windy here the last couple of days. We even got a dusting of snow this morning, but it quickly disappeared. We ran a couple of errands early, and as I was rushing back to the car, I caught my reflection in the side mirror. I was laughing as I entered, and told Patrick when he asked what was funny, that I was just thrilled to see my hair blowing in the breeze. Blowing. Yes.

I’m so thankful it’s beginning to get some length, albeit still a bit unevenly. And those cowlicks. I can’t even. But I feel more feminine, which matters to me. And how about those cute Christmas earrings I found?

December 9, 2021

This was another day that started with a 6 am meeting and continued with me being crabby most of the day. Sigh. While I have been dealing with a lot is sinus issues (thanks change in weather) I don’t even have a good excuse for my crabbiness. Mostly just tired. And wishing I could see my kids. Or my friends. And frustrated with work again. Blah blah blah.

So after work I decided I needed to get out of the house. Literally just needed to get some fresh air. After a bit of time chasing the dogs in the backyard, Patrick and I walked around the block. I’d like to say I left my crabby attitude outside, but I can say the fresh air helped. My crabby cloud got smaller. I’m thankful for that. I think Patrick is , too.

December 8, 2021

I saw my plastic surgeon today. He says the way radiation shrank my skin means we will have to overfill my left breast to get it to match closer to the right. Apparently this will require overfill, removal, then more fill so the skin can stretch and relax. Sounds exciting, doesn’t it?

We didn’t talk timeline this time, but we did start the fills today. He was just going to fill the left side but I asked to add some to the right as well. I was hoping it would help alleviate the uncomfortable creasing that happens when the spacer folds on itself. Since it’s now more full, it does feel better. The downside is that it’s more obvious that my breasts are uneven. Thank goodness it’s sweater weather, so it’s easy to hide.

I go next week for another fill. If it goes well, my doctor said we’ll continue weekly. I’m hoping it might mean my surgery can happen sooner, but I’m not getting my hopes up. He did mention again that he will need to do liposuction on my stomach to fill in spots during my surgery. I’m not even offended that his statement meant I had stomach fat because, yay! He’s going to remove it! Bonus. I may need to rethink the size breasts I want because I have fat elsewhere he could use, too.

I kid, of course. I just want to look proportional when all this is done. And I’m thankful to have gotten this next part started today.

December 7, 2021

It was a long day that started with a 6 am meeting. Maybe luckily for me, I was awake every hour from 2 am on. For some reason, I now have a hot flash every night at 2 am. Fun. Thankfully, our tile is cool in the middle of the night, so getting up and walking into the bathroom is helpful in dispelling the heat.

Speaking of cool, look at this Christmas countdown wine box. We missed the first few days, but we’ll catch up. I’ve enjoyed trying new wines, especially white ones I don’t normally drink. And each bottle has about two glasses of wine in it, so it’s just enough. The added bonus is that it’s perfect for the end of these long days. I’m thankful for some simple ways to unwind. Tonight it was a glass of wine, a short ride on the stationary bike (I’m still working on that leg), and a silly Christmas movie.

December 6, 2021

The last couple of days my hip/leg has REALLY been bothering me. It hurt even to sit and my walking was about as fast as this sloth. I also have had a hard time getting comfortable in bed. I’ve had to move to the recliner in the middle of the night. Last night I looked up my symptoms and it sounds a lot like sciatica. Sigh.

Before I went to bed yesterday, I did a lot of stretching. Then every time I woke up last night, I tried to stretch my hip out. Today I tried to get up and walk often during my work day. And stretch whenever convenient. So far, it seems to be working! The pain is much less than it was yesterday. It’s tolerable and I can walk easier. I’m so thankful it feels better, but I’m asking Santa for a new body for Christmas.

December 5, 2021

Patrick says I should be thankful for him today because he does all the things. But he says that every day. I am always thankful for him because he does do a lot, even though “all the things” really means all the things he likes to do. Like cooking, gardening, and shopping for cooking ingredients.

I’m also thankful today for getting the presents wrapped that I needed to so we can get them shipped this week. I also straightened up the basement again since Patrick did a good job getting it cleaned for me. I love when it’s not cluttered.

Speaking of cluttered, I started rearranging my craft room. I’m trying to get it a bit more open for sewing. Right now it’s a mess, but I plan to move some items to my storage unit for now. Stay tuned…