May 28, 2021

Today I had an appointment with an ear, nose, throat specialist to check on my sinus issues. He asked how long my issues have been going on, and I told him I couldn’t remember a time that I didn’t have them. I have post nasal drip constantly and year round. It’s annoying.

My main reason for seeing the doctor is to make sure I don’t have the same sinus issues that I had during the last surgery. I was hoping to preemptively figure it out before my next surgery gets scheduled. After a brief check of (not surprisingly) my ears, nose, and throat, the doctor says I have non-allergic rhinitis and prescribed me a nose spray. He says it has great success in drying up the excess drainage. Yay! I’m thankful it’s a potentially simple fix and will keep my fingers crossed it works for me.

May 25, 2021

On days when I’m wondering what I’m going to write about, Patrick’s response is always, “me!” Well, today is the day.

This guy. It’s his birthday today, so I’m using a pre-head-shave picture from before our life got sucked into cancer. (Although I think he looks great hair or no hair.) I don’t know how I’d have gotten through the last 6 months without him. He has handled our months of “for worse” without complaint, helping me any way he can, but mostly helping me stay sane.

I think I’ve mentioned before that we are almost opposites. He has a PHD in mathematics and I have a master’s in communication. He doesn’t like to socialize or dress up, and I like a good party dress. I like comedies and decorating shows and Hallmark on repeat. He likes American Horror Story and cooking alone. But somehow, it works. I think we make each other better versions of ourselves. I know he does me. And I know without a doubt that he always has my back. I’m grateful for him today and every day.

May 24, 2021

What a Monday. I had a work meeting that started at 7 am and lasted over 3 hours. When that was over, I immediately got a couple of phone calls and then had 2 more meetings, finally getting a break at noon. The upside is that it made the day go by quickly. The downside is that I still had my normal chemo side effects, and I’m already fading fast for the day. For some reason this week, my legs have been extra sore, even keeping me awake at night. And I still have my face rash. Soon. Soon it all goes away.

So while I’m relaxing this evening, I’m thankful for the smell of lilacs. Our rather large lilac bush is blooming, and we brought some branches inside. It’s crazy how just a few blooms can make an entire room smell wonderful. Well, it’s wonderful to me because I love lilacs. Patrick even used some of the blooms to make infused bath salts, so I have that to look forward to. And when the lilacs fade, I have my peonies to bring in, another favorite of mine. I’m so happy that they’re blooming this year!

May 23, 2021

Another good day for seeing friends! We met up with a few friends for brunch—our first time getting together in person in months. I’m not going to lie, it felt weird. But it was also great to see each other again. It will be wonderful when it’s a regular occasion again. After my surgery I won’t be as worried about picking up something random and postponing any treatment.

Unfortunately, a lot of the day I felt achy again. Patrick reminded me that I’m still in my normal effects time. Sigh. At least it’s not too bad, and, oh yeah, no more chemo this week! Soon my aches will be only because I’m out of shape.

At any rate, today I’m thankful for a brief time with friends and looking forward to normalcy.

May 22, 2021

My daughter’s bridal shower was today, but of course, I couldn’t go since it was in North Carolina. But I sent a present and will wait to see some pictures. I’m grateful she enjoyed her day.

Happily for me, though, it was warm enough today to sit outside and visit with my friend Ann. While it was in the 80’s, the breeze was cool enough for us to chat for a couple of hours on my deck and have some snacks and drinks. It was so great to finally get together in person!

I didn’t get a picture of us but here’s how lovely it looked outside today! Ignore how much the deck needs repainting.

May 21, 2021

Last night I was awake more than I was asleep, which stinks. I’m not a person who does well with lack is sleep. And today is my usually extra tired day after chemo, so it’s been a long day. Add on that it’s been raining all day, and it’s the perfect evening to snuggle in and fall asleep on the sofa. While I know the chemo fatigue will still linger for a while, I’m thankful that this is my last week for the normal chemo routine.

May 20, 2021

Since our weather took a turn towards summer, with highs in the 80s for the next week, I decided it was time to put away some winter clothes and get out some summer ones. Yes, I’m that person who swaps out her closet with the seasons. I’m sure that is an indication that my closet is too small, not that I have too many clothes. (I can see Patrick rolling his eyes.)

I acknowledge that there are a couple of issues with my method. 1.) It’s easy to forget what exists in the stored totes and inevitably, I buy something pre-season that is a bit similar to something I already own. I also end up doing the opposite at the end of the season, buying something on clearance and storing it, hoping I’ll still like it when I see it again. 2.) Storing clothes in totes almost always shrinks them. Haha. I kid. But seriously, pulling out summer clothes requires trying them on before putting them away because, you know, winter pounds haven’t always melted away yet. And the whole process is a chore that takes a while.

I got through about half my process tonight because I also decided to eliminate anything I knew I wouldn’t wear. I made a pile that I’ll show my daughters to see if either are interested before donating elsewhere. And today I’m thankful that pretty much everything fit. In fact, some things fit a little better than I remembered from last year. I’m calling that a chemo silver lining.

May 19, 2021

Sparkly party shoes!

My last chemo!! I decided to end with the first wig I wore. While the treatment was uneventful, it was still exciting to know that it was the final one. Now I’ll have a break before surgery and can get some strength back.

I have to say again that I’m so grateful for the staff at the cancer clinic. They were all capable, friendly, and reassuring. And Andrew, the one who helps everyone check in, knew everyone’s name. I swear by my second visit, he knew who I was. It was amazing how quickly he remembered people. In some weird way, I’ll miss seeing everyone. As a thank you, I bought some cupcakes which Patrick delivered before lunch since my appointment was late this afternoon.

Speaking of Patrick, he has been such a trooper through all my chemo. He never missed one, even though they weren’t very exciting. I’m lucky to have him on my side.

I’m also thankful for all the happy surprises too. My in-laws sent a whole party; My morning latte and dinner were thanks to my mom; a friend dropped off a lovely candle and oil. I’m so blessed!